Life, happens when you’re making plans…

Realistically, my blog wouldn’t be called Lifeisfunbeingme if I didn’t adhere to living my life like the image below…

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Or the hundreds of similar images I’m constantly re-pinning on my Quotes board on Pinterest…

Although half of the time I’m probably guilty of saying one too many cliches, I honestly think that you cannot admit you are the kind of person who lives their life by quotes if you don’t actually take the advice they offer. Take for example the all time classic ‘live life to its fullest.’ Can you honestly say that you are?! You cannot answer YES if you are not out there gambling with the unknown, pushing the boundaries of your comfort zone or doing things that you never thought you would have to do in a million years!

Take me for example, I have struggled with my anxiety for a long long time, I’m ashamed to admit it but I let my anxiety control my life for almost 10 years that if I even begin to think of all the things I’ve let myself miss out on, I instantly feel my anger levels rising! I cannot even begin to attempt to tell you how hard it is still living each day with your heart beating what feels like a thousand beats a minute!

It’s hard but being positive is the key to not letting anxiety ever empower me again and so I’ve found losing myself in quotes that make me want to say Yes to life help me win my constant battle against the thousands of panic attacks wanting to erupt. As well as having an excellent support system around me that I’m lucky to call friends. Combining these two things together make my confidence soar so much that I’m almost able to abandon that stupid shell I still hide under.

I promised myself that 2015 would be the year I stopped having panic attacks although it feels like I made my new years resolution a lifetime ago! I’m so proud of myself to know that I’ve managed to take one baby step in the right direction and finally be able to say, ‘YES’ to a plan without freaking out about it! I’ve finally stopped saying, ‘NO’ and finally started to seize every single day with new experiences, encounters, friendships and most importantly not knowing what’s around the corner.

It sounds really silly but the movie YES MAN actually makes SO much sense because ‘life really does happen when you start making plans!’ This song inspired me to write this post because the lyrics kind of say it all, don’t you think?

I’m finally not afraid anymore and these pictures now make more sense than ever before!

I actually used to be terrified of the unknown because I didn’t have the slightest clue of what it would bring and that alone would cause me an intense amount of anxiety; but now I have a different tactic, I dive in head first. I’ve realised that the unexpected brings adventure and this really excites me because it’s new, it’s fun and it’s not routine.

So I challenge you all to do the same and take part in Lifeisfunbeingme first ever blog challenge. Take the plunge, get out there and take a picture that represents your favourite quote, one where you can say, ‘I lived in this one!’ I can 100% promise you that when you look back to the moment you created, you will find that it is 10 times better than the one you were inspired to start off with because you were actually there to create it…

So what are you waiting for?! Get your camera and get photographing! For a chance to feature on my blog, send in the moment you captured with your story and the image or thing that inspired you to do so to lifeisfunbeingme@hotmail.com

I look forward to receiving them :)!

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

On the other side of fear lies freedom…

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Hey strangers!

This time I’m not going to apologise for the absence of blogposts on lifeisfunbeingme nor am I going to pretend that I’ve had the busiest few months which is why I haven’t had the time to update you on what I’ve been up to!

Because…

If I’ve found and had the time to do whatever I wanted, then I definitely had the time to squeeze in some writing. For once in my life I’ve finally seen something through, I’ve actually been keeping my New Years resolution, although I’m focusing all of my energy towards part of it – to be happy!

I’ve discovered that fun starts on the other side of fear because I’ve pushed my boundaries further and explored OUTSIDE of my comfort zone. It’s exciting because I wake up not knowing what will happen! I can’t believe that I didn’t try this out sooner. I know that I’ve mentioned in previous posts how I’ve felt that anxiety has destroyed parts of my life but something inside me has clicked and now I feel unstoppable.

Those who are part of my life will know how shy I really am in person and how much I’ve had to overcome. So for me to be able to admit that I’m finally living life, although being a small milestone; to me is a huge achievement. I can’t believe that I’ve finally managed it because I’ve struggled to feel confident in myself for so long!

So here’s to being a little more careless and seeing what this world is made of! It’s been so much fun making plans, keeping myself busy and actually having a social life. I’ve loved every second of meeting up with friends, experiencing the new as well as trying out new places, bars and mixing with different types of people.

I cannot believe that I allowed having a chronic illness stop me from living my life. Don’t get me wrong living with diabetes can be terrifying but I’ve learned that the most important way to deal with it is to just BREATHE!! I’ve now realised that my diagnosis of type 1 diabetes came as a blessing in disguise as it’s changed me for the better, because although it turned my world upside down and put me through 2 years of hell, I can finally see some light at the end of the tunnel!

I don’t know what changes I’ve made that has finally allowed my control to be a lot better as well as finally being able to lose a bit of weight too! This feeling of constant adrenaline that I have inside me lately is amazing and I really really hope that it stays because I really don’t want it to go away.

I think that as cliché as it sounds, you really are in charge of what happens to you in life, if you are unhappy with it, all you need to do is re-write it! You have the power to create a destiny you can only be happy with; so it really is down to you!

With summer just around the corner I’m determined to make it my best adventure yet! Travelling the world at the moment is not on my list of priorities because I can open my eyes to the possibilities around me and realise that the adventure of a lifetime is right in front of me waiting to be started.

Be sure to explore outside of your comfort zone too…

I’ll see you soon.

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

Why I’ve watched 50 Shades not once but TWICE…

Since I found out 50 Shades of Grey was being made into a movie, I couldn’t wait to see it!! I’ve personally read all 3 books and absolutely loved them, although they were heavily criticised for it’s punctuation and language.

I’ve decided that I will argue why 50 Shades of Grey is amazing…for starters according to The Guardian it sold over 100 million copies! Not only is that pretty much amazing, but there has to be a reason for it right?!

Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why?

Isn’t it obvious?

What woman is going to say no to a life that revolves around money, passion and a great sex life?! E. L James wrote every woman’s fantasy and turned it into a film. I highly doubt that any woman would say no to a relationship with a wild sex life. As quoted in the book I’m pretty sure that many of you would prefer to having a small fraction of 50 shades in your life as opposed to the vanilla relationship you are currently in. I know that I would!

Christian Grey is a character with many dark issues but it makes me think what person doesn’t bring any emotional baggage with them?! Being in a relationship with a successful business man when you yourself are a nobody, of course one would be shy, nervous and intimidated around a guy like that. Consider all the insecurities us girls generally have and then you somehow manage to bag yourself a guy who in your eyes is a 10/10 and makes you feel like a million dollars when you perhaps have no self-confidence, are shy and believe yourself to be a 4/10. I feel that the mind couldn’t help but wonder why me? This world has millions of other girls who are probably more amazing, more beautiful and more interesting right??…

That’s why it sold because every woman has a bit of Anastasia Steele in them! I know I do…

After the book had been heavily criticised it was no surprise that the film was going to succumb to the same thing. I’ve seen a few reviews which say that the on-screen chemistry was practically non existent. I completely disagree because its clear that those critics did not read the book. Otherwise if they had done, they would have known that Anastasia’s character is very shy and she is really intimidated by Christian Grey. I mean if that was you, would you not be the same?

As much as I loved the film, I was really angry at the ending because of the cliff-hanger the director chose to end it with. I have been looking forward to watching this film for almost a year and that was brutal enough! For those of you who also loved watching 50 Shades I’m pretty sure most of you would agree with me that seeing what you imagined when reading the book being made into real-life was amazing.

I couldn’t help but re-read the Fifty Shades Darker to carry on watching 50 shades in mind…

Who else has seen it?

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

Hello February

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While the first month of 2015 is done and dusted with, I can’t help but feel proud of the things I have achieved and yet still have 11 months to go to achieve the rest of my new years resolutions…

Of course, I’m still to dominate the world but facing one of my biggest fears – my anxiety, to me is pretty much the same thing.

I’m annoyed at myself that I let my emotions take over my life and not update you much at all in the last 3 months, especially as my ‘This Month’ category is the one I enjoy writing up the most! Now that I’m back I’m determined for you guys to not miss out on a single thing I’m up to…

So February is finally here and let’s check my diary to see what I’m looking forward too…

First things first I’m looking forward to taking blogging more seriously this year by expanding my presence online. So I’m setting myself a goal to reach 200 likes on my Facebook page by the end of the month! For those moments when I don’t have the time to write, you can follow me on Facebook! If you haven’t already… give me a like and check out what I get up to in between blogging!!

This weekend, I’m going back to Cardiff to have a huge night out in celebration of my birthday which was last week! I honestly cannot wait, I’m so excited to party with one of my bestest friends who is also one of my favourite club buddies! I just know that this weekend is going to be epic! Not only that, I will be back in my favourite city, if only I was still at uni…

Oh well… I’m pretty sure PANCAKE DAY will cheer me up, I’m so excited for this! I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this before but in Italy there are café’s which only sell crepes, how amazing is that?! Instead here in the UK I have to wait patiently for pancake day to arrive:( I am literally obsessed with chocolate, I think that it’s safe for me to say that the way to my heart is definitely by giving me chocolate, obviously. Just putting it out there…

I’m also going to be doing a bit of retail therapy this month, I have a list of goodies which I must purchase starting with a brand new wardrobe!!! The best part to this is I’m dragging my best friend along with me for a day of fun….Eeekkk!!

Finally, 2015 is the year for 50 Shades of Grey to come out in the cinemas! I’ve been looking forward to this since they announced it was going to be made into a movie! I literally cannot wait to see this vision being put into action. I am so excited for the film that I’m going to do a whole post on why I’m going to watch it…

That’s pretty much it for this month…

Comment below what your up to, you never know we might have something in common…

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

Like me on FACEBOOK!

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Life in general can often get in the way of our plans or the things that we really want to do. For me, this means that sometimes I may not be able to write a post that I’ve thought of throughout the day as I may be at work, out with a friend or simply not have the energy to sit down and write! So for those annoying life inconvenience’s we tend to experience, I’ve come up with a solution…

I’ve set up a Facebook page for my blog so that you can see what I get up to when I’m not writing!

Check it out HERE!

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

Take Back What’s YOURS!!

One of my favourite bloggers Chloe’s Concept has started off a campaign to help victims who have been bullied. I, myself know exactly what it feels like, what its like to be made fun of, tormented and left with emotional scars. People don’t actually realise how powerful some words and actions can be… how it can impact your view on things, how it makes you feel and in particular the opinion you then develop of yourself!

For years I believed that I didn’t matter, that my existence didn’t count and that no one genuinely cared about me or what I had to say BUT then in 2014 at a blog conference I met Chloe. Her campaign and her concept blew me away, it just made total sense for me to take part! She made me realise that I dealt with the bullying the wrong way. I should have never listened to those stupid voices and should have never allowed for them to be able to empower themselves over my vulnerability, I should have been stronger!

While she makes the point that you can’t change the past, or the fact that you were bullied as you can’t go back in time and undo it…unfortunately geniuses are yet to invent a time machine! I have to accept it as one of the bad chapters that had to be written in my life BUT what I can do now is change my tomorrow and take back what they took!

In keeping with my New Year resolution I promised myself that I would take the time in writing about things that actually matter in life and for once not just think about myself or my rambles. One of the topics that I want to touch more on is bullying! Although I’ve left those emotional scars in 2014 it doesn’t mean I can’t help be a part of stamping it out!

In passing this message on, here is my picture of what I’m super excited to take back, you guys borrowed it for too long…

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Please do get involved with this campaign by sharing your story and let’s support one another…

Let’s all help Chloe’s achieve her dream because she deserves to see it being put into action! We NEED more people like her wanting to make the world a happier, safer and positive place. Help Chloe to spread the word by simply giving this a read, a share or doing your part in spreading the word that BULLYING NEEDS TO STOP!

TOGETHER we can help make a difference! We can make bullying once and for all HISTORY!! No more will people feel anxious, alone, sad, scared and worthless…by sharing this campaign you can be part of something extraordinary! We can finally live in a world of positivity, where people don’t bring each other down but we help, inspire and encourage each other to keep reaching for our dreams…

Go ahead and be your own person again, what are you going to take back?!

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

My New Years Resolution

Most of us now have an account with Netflix and waste away hours watching series, films or even documentaries. I’m no stranger to this, some days I love staying in bed and getting lost in a new reality by binge watching rom-com after rom-com. I recently watched Remember Sunday which is one of the cutest romantic films ever, I had to watch it twice! If you’re a bit like me a sucker for love, relationships and happily ever afters the next time you log on… watch it!

I’ll add the trailer just to convince you…

One of the things that I loved about this film is the guy had post-its and lists everywhere! I knew I was going to love this film right from the start because I’m exactly the same I’m forever making lists and plans. This film inspired me to make my lists into actions by ticking them off one by one! In the film the guy had daily tasks to complete something as simple to smile at a stranger, I thought this was such a brilliant idea!

I wanted to be like this guy, to treat each day as a new beginning and have a start over button because I’m sick and tired of regretting things I could have done; which I didn’t do because I was scared or didn’t have to courage to suck it up and just go for it! I would much rather always regret something that I did do than something that I didn’t do because I can’t go back in time and relive that moment where I could have made a difference in my life.

Sometimes I wish there was a time machine to go back and do things differently because I can’t help but wonder ‘What if?’

While most of you have probably given up on your resolutions, I’m only getting started by facing my fears one step at a time to help me be the best person that I can possibly be. Here’s a sneak peak to what I’m setting myself up for, are you ready to be part of my journey?!

1. Smile at strangers
2. Make eye contact with people
3. Use the stairs in my office
4. Start going to the gym instead of paying for a membership that I don’t use, I mean the love of my life could be working out as we speak!
5. Introduce myself to a guy who I like the look of and if I’m feeling brave ask for his number instead of daydreaming about doing it!
6. To never allow the scars left by the people who bullied me put me down ever again!
7. For 2014 to be the year where I had my last panic attack!
8. Write often
9. Do new things
10. Say YES to more things
11. Be a better diabetic than last year by eating healthier and not forgetting to ALWAYS take my medication
12. Facing my fears one by one by remembering that I can achieve anything I put my mind to
13. Open a savings account
14. Join a campaign to help make a difference
15. Tell people how I really feel instead of always being scared to voice my opinion
16. Let people know I have a voice…I’m right HERE!
17. Stop worrying about things ALL THE TIME
18. Most importantly BE HAPPY!

I feel so proud of myself that I’ve finally gotten over my writers block, I mean I’m pretty sure you’ve all missed my blogposts as much as I’ve missed writing them, this picture expresses exactly how I felt…

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I can’t believe that all I needed was a bit of courage to take one step in the right direction and this time not look back, not live in the past, not worry but live in the now…

Its the best feeling in the world having the courage to face new things in life, making small changes and picking up where you left off because it makes your day so much more interesting, you stop living a routine like a robot and actually live, you get to take in this new moment around you…

My only hope is that this new fearless me doesn’t stop because I have a hell of lot more to achieve!

I mean the other day I actually crossed off No.3 on my list and used the stairs in my work. The weirdest thing was that I bumped into a friend of mine from college who I had no idea worked in the same building as me. If I continued being lazy and always used the lift, that small encounter would have never happened, my day would have never changed and I wouldn’t have spent 5 minutes catching up with an old friend. It seems to me that this is only the start of a new beginning…

What changes have you made to make life even more fun that it already is?!

2015 could be YOUR year!

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X

White Space

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So your emails haven’t been buzzing with notifications that there is movement on lifeisfunbeingme lately and its because I’ve been feeling really sad as well as constantly being anxious and to top it off I had 2 huge panic attacks which left me shaken for a while. 

To you guys it might sound strange but my method to help calm me down and assure myself that I’m only experiencing a palpation is thinking of the colour white. It really helps me because when you think of white its bright, calm and its clear. But when I’m having a panic attack my mind kind of looks like a massive brainstorm of the many unresolved issues that I have which lately I just can’t seem to overcome.

I had a bit of a heart to heart with my dad who said something quite inspiring to me that has made me decide enough is enough! He said ‘People who end up alone are cowards because they are afraid of living life and accepting the challenges that it throws at you’ It kind of upset me because he almost described… well, me. BUT I’ve decided; I’m done being afraid all the time, I’m done being scared to the point where I alienate myself from people. I’m done allowing bullies to still control how I think about myself! I’m going to get over this because I want to live, I don’t want to be scared anymore so here’s my happy ending to 2014… I faced the biggest demon of all, the person who has made me feel like this in the first place and I feel great. For the rest, I’ve bought a list book (obviously from Paperchase) and I’m going to do one thing that terrifies me every single day because its time I face my demons one by one…

So here’s to a fearless me and THE year where I finally find myself again, 2015 I’m ready! 

It feels good to be back… I’ve missed this… 

See you soon 🙂 

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X 

Diabetes, Insulin, Hypos & lifeisfunhaving abrokenpancreas X

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The American Recall Centre aim to provide practical healthcare information alongside drug and medical device recalls. They are taking the month of October as an opportunity to “talk about your medicines”, in the hope to shed some light on the importance of medication safety. This is where I come in… they have asked ME to to be part of this due to being a diabetic 😦 Yep as much as I hate to admit it I am an insulin dependant or as I prefer an insulin-a-holic :)! I am honoured to help such a good cause and help make a few more of you guys aware of what us diabetics have to go through on a daily basis. I have been wanting to share this for a while and now seems like the perfect moment to turn this draft post into a published one. 

Let’s start with the basics…

What is diabetes?
Diabetes is a condition ‘where the amount of glucose in your blood is too high because the body cannot use it properly. This is because your pancreas doesn’t produce any insulin, or not enough insulin, to help glucose enter your body’s cells – or the insulin that is produced does not work properly (known as insulin resistance)’, as explained by 
www.diabetes.org.uk.

This video explains what causes diabetes in more detail…

I personally, do not have the time to be a diabetic nor do I have the time to measure my sugars 10x a day as well as keeping a record of them and making sure I avoid high blood sugars as well as hypos (low blood sugars)! The word hypo is short for hypoglycemia, this occurs when blood sugar levels fall under 4 mmol/L which is explained in more detail here…

Whereas this video shows how aware the public are of hypo’s and the symptoms to look out for, to me it’s shocking to find out that some people are not aware which is exactly why its so important to help raise awareness…

The simple version of this = WE NEED FOOD! 

Although the worst part is knowing that there is nothing I can do but accept it,  I will prove that although I have a pain in the ass of an illness it’s still fun being me because you guys don’t search for lifeisfunbeingasobstory or lifeissadbeingme!  

The first bit of good news is that after a year and a half of hell, struggling to keep away hypo’s I have finally managed to get my diabetes under control! My hypo’s have finally started to disappear, I cannot explain how much this means to me, I finally feel normal again considering that my pancreas still doesn’t work! Now instead of my weight going up it will start to go down, yayy! My doctors explained that I was ‘feeding my insulin’ which means I didn’t calculate the carb ratio of what I eating correctly, which meant I would then inject too much insulin and would then have to eat again to get my sugars back to normal take more insulin, eat again and so on; it became a vicious circle of hypo’s and weight being constantly piled on. Finally, it’s stopped! The diabetes no longer controls me but I control it…Eeeekk! I no longer worry as much when I go out and no longer have the constant worry of, ‘What if I go hypo?!’ I genuinely do think that to be able to master diabetes you really do need a PHD in Maths… 

One of the perks to having this illness is knowing that you are not alone, knowing that there are other people out there who also know what its like to have a broken pancreas and I kind of love that, I love meeting other diabetics because having a diabetic buddy is the best thing in the world! They understand you like no one else and the best part is that there is no better feeling than saying the word ‘Hypo’ and for once not having someone looking at you like you’ve just made up a word! Instead you see the same panic (in a good way) that you feel when your going hypo and there’s that instant compassion towards that person, an understanding of ‘OMG you need to eat!’ and a quick… ‘Have my emergency snack or take my last sugar tablet.’

Since being diagnosed I have suffered from panic attacks as I was convinced that I was going to die, it really is scary to find out how many complications this illness brings and so I found writing therapeutic as it was a way to get everything off my chest. Since then I have started to take blogging very seriously (although being limited to how much I can get done due to working full time). A few weeks ago I went to a blog conference where we had some very inspirational speakers talk to us about their blogger experience, one of the speakers spoke to us about how writing helped his autism and I don’t know why but what he said really affected me. He described his Autism as an ability and defined his ‘disability is an ability’, that phrase has kept me inspired to achieve more for the simple reason that I have diabetes, for me personally its not an excuse to not try, its the perfect excuse to push myself, reach for the impossible and be able to say, ‘I’ve done all of this AND I have diabetes’. I’m kind of glad to be a diabetic because if I wasn’t I don’t think I would have anything fuelling me to reach for my dreams.

Becoming diabetic changed my perception of life and changed me for the better, its made me seize the day even more and really live life. I’ve even lost friends because they didn’t want to understand my illness, the people in my life need to understand that I have an illness and that sometimes it may challenge me AND I need to know for my own peace of mind that YOU will be there to help me. Out of my friends and family I am one of the weakest one’s because I need help and will always be the one making a fuss and if you can’t accept it, I can’t accept you. 

I used to be shy measuring my sugars in public or having to inject my insulin, I would act all 007 with my diabetes but now its kind of fun freaking people out with needles and blood, I need to make it fun somehow… I know that it’s human nature to be curious but what I do want to point out is that there is a difference between people caring and wanting to know what diabetes is as opposed to those who are just nosey as to why you just pricked your finger and injected your stomach just because they are sat next to you in a coffee shop. So please do not be offended if I don’t want to waste my time telling you about my illness, I’m too busy living life 🙂  

So whilst my condition means I’m not allowed to drink, well I am but to the extent of being allowed one shot for the whole night to me is not worth damaging your liver a tiny bit more now and again. I would rather stay off it completely and as a consequence I’m always designated driver, my friends can throw up all they want and make a fool of themselves whilst I’m in the corner sticking to my boring diet coke which tastes like crap. BUT at the end of the night I will have saved my £20 instead of spending it which I can then go and spend on a new jumper,  a shirt or skirt. I’ll able to keep up to date on the latest fashion trends and don’t have to wait for my next pay check as opposed to my friends. I don’t need alcohol to have fun and nobody knows that I’m sober for all they know I’m as drunk as them and you would probably think the same if you saw my awful dancing skills. When people try to make conversation and ask, ‘What are you drinking?’ A white lie here and there never hurt anybody, nobody knows that your not really drinking vodka and coke do they?? Ideally what are we missing out on? If anything people miss out on the advantages that being sober brings! 

Being diabetic means I slow down outings because I have to check my sugars regularly to make sure they’re not too high or too low but as much as my friends & family may hate it I know that I’m taking care of myself, avoiding all long term complications and you cannot say that this isn’t an advantage…

For those who know me personally they will know that I’m the biggest hopeless romantic that you could ever come across and I’ve kind of had to accept the fact that my illness can potentially dent and ruin my happily ever after. I’m terrified that when the day arrives that I get married I will have a hypo walking down the aisle! BUT if I’ve learnt one thing my wedding will be full of people who love me – my friends and family, so I’m hoping that those sat at the end of the aisle will all have a Mars Bar, Lucozade or a full fat coke in case my sugars plummet! Now that I think of it… I actually may include sugary foods in the wedding gifts because a diabetic can never have too much sweetness in their life nor can they also be too prepared for a hypo and also because the bottom line is they are expensive! It’s kind of like when your parents tell you not to spend your pocket money on sweets and its like I’m a diabetic I need sweets do not deprive me of sweets! I love silver linings, don’t you?! 

Although I try my hardest to be as positive and as happy as I can with my diabetes the reality of it is all in this picture… 

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If I could have had a decision in all of this, I would have preferred to have been born with diabetes so that I didn’t know what I was missing out on, It wouldn’t hurt me as much to know that once I never had to worry about all of this and to know that I could eat all the crap in the world and it didn’t affect me. 

Everyday as soon as I wake up I need to measure my sugars to make sure they are within range followed by eating breakfast and a shot of insulin. Lunch, dinner and before bed are the same process, on top of that I need to measure my sugars before exercise and before I drive because god forbid I was to have a car crash and didn’t measure my sugars because I couldn’t be bothered, I really do think that somehow it would be my fault even if the crash wasn’t caused by me due to making the point that I could have had low blood sugars allowing me to not be fit to drive and not having the proof to show otherwise. It may sound blown out of proportion but something so simple can very easily become complicated and serious very quickly!  

As you can see my box of supplies is very full…

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I try to stay on top of my illness as much as I can as I worry constantly about the serious implications diabetes can have and so I have emergency supplies stashed everywhere in my glove compartment, in my parents car, my mums bag and in all of my favourite jackets. I cannot leave the house if I’m not wearing my diabetes bracelet because I’m scared of something happening to me and people misinterpreting the signs because contrary to belief you don’t have to be obese to be diabetic it not obvious who has it so do be aware of what the diabetes sign looks like, you could help save a life…

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I feel like this picture looks like a ‘Win a diabetes supply kit’ but it really isn’t that glamorous at all…

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Diabetes has almost taken away a certain fraction of that passion I used to have when sitting down to enjoy a meal as dinner now becomes a maths problem of working out how many carbohydrates I’ve just eaten and how much insulin I need to inject myself with to avoid high blood sugars. Not only that but I feel diabetes affects every aspect of your life such as the media constantly pressurise us to look a certain way and its even harder when you can’t achieve the perfect look especially when you have these stupid bruises which always appear from your injections and are just unpleasant to look at 😦

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Since being diabetic I find it even harder to meet people because I don’t know how to act around them, it makes me panic because I worry that they’ll faint at the sight of me pulling out a needle or pricking my finger to measure my blood sugars, I just don’t know what to do with myself sometimes I even think, do I need to mention I’m diabetic?! The one thing that I truly do hate is passing this illness to my future child who will have no choice but to be made from my genetic coding and that really saddens me because I don’t want for someone to be diabetic because of me, its just not right! 

The worst part of diabetes is when I experience high or low blood sugars, I feel that its important that people need to understand that we cannot help or control our emotions during these moments, whenever the two occur I become really irritated at everything around me and this always results in me lashing out to those closest to me and its hard because I don’t mean it but always feel this constant guilt because although they are understanding I was having a hypo nobody should have a person’s rage taken out on them!  

I’m 99% sure that every diabetic will agree with everything in this post whether they say diabetes affects them or not because the sooner you accept the reality that you have a serious illness the easier it is to deal with, you cannot ignore it! I cannot remember my life before diabetes and I miss not having to worry all the time or being able to buy small bags instead of rucksacks to fit in my needles, insulin pens, emergency snacks, sugar tablets and my glucose monitor. BUT the one thing I miss the most is making the most insignificant problem in my life my real one…

Being a diabetic is hard, its stressful and upsetting AND it’s what I have to go through every single day, there’s no day off! I have to do everything I can to make sure my sugars stay in between 4-7 and taking my insulin without fail. I wish that I could take a day off and go crazy with sugar but I can’t, I cannot uninstall my diabetes and say I’ll deal with it tomorrow even on my bad days I have to stay on top of my sugars because I will win and I will NOT let it control me. 

It’s extremely important to be supportive to anyone you know with diabetes especially when they have what we call ‘bad days’ because there will be a point when we cannot take it anymore and have had enough of having to be healthy all the time! There is no such thing as the perfect diabetic we’ve all gone through the same stages where we refuse to measure our sugars, refuse to take our insulin, where we decide to go crazy and eat a tonne of fast food as well as drinking far more than the recommended amount of alcohol which is extremely dangerous. I know this because I’ve done it myself, it took me ages to accept that I have diabetes and I would not be writing this post today if it didn’t give me the wake up call I needed. That moment our sugars plummet for me is a constant reminder that I have a serious illness  and therefore it’s crucial for us to have a good support system so that when we feel like giving up you guys can give us the motivation we need to get back up and continue because we cannot afford to let diabetes get out of control! 

So before you get up and leave remember that… 

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As much as donations help charities, money does not have the power to save or rid an illness, this post is NOT made for you to think, ‘The next time I make a donation to charity, I’m going to give £1 to the diabetes association because I read a post about how much of a horrible illness it is.’ What do you seriously think your £1 will have contributed too? The cost of making a flyer, research?? I will be a diabetic until I die and no amount of money will ever change that!

This post is made to help you understand because I believe in education having more power than money can ever have because if you are aware, you can understand and if you can understand you can help. So please do by spreading awareness that diabetes is not something to brush under the carpet! Re-blog this post because if you are out and hear the word hypo from the crowd you will no longer think of it as a made up word, you will know the implications an untreated hypo can have on a diabetic. YOU can save the life of a stranger by giving them some sugar and that’s something a £1 donation will never be able to do! 

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Please do help diabetes gain awareness by simply sharing this post whether its on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or word of mouth. I hope that you now have a better understanding of diabetes and no longer believe that we became ill by eating too much cake. Please do acknowledge that diabetes is a serious illness and whilst there is no cure we can at least help make aware what we have to go through to survive, how dependant we are of insulin and how much we need our friends & family to support us ESPECIALLY through our bad days.  

I would love to hear your opinions on this post, do comment below, tweet or email me at rosa.aversa92@live.com if you prefer.

I would also like to thank the American recall centre for the awesome job they do in raising awareness for various illnesses as well as asking me to take part and giving me a reason to finally publish this post.

Do check out their website at http://www.recallcenter.com/ and check out their latest blog post on the problematic findings of Xarelto (a blood thinner prescription) 

Love,
Lifeisfunhavingabrokenpancreas X 

It’s time to Prepare…

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Finally, it’s less than 24 hours until #blogconf and its time for me to roll up my sleeves and get serious. It’s time to do my research and prepare for tomorrow….

First order of business… Business Cards CHECK!

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I’m so excited that my cards finally arrived, they are perfect! I cannot wait to network, socialise, meet plenty of bloggers and of course hand them my card so that they remember to subscribe and check out my social networks. 

So far I’ve prepared for the following…

Set alarm for 5:45.. ugh!
Sweets for the road trip!
Full Tank of petrol!
Directions!
Parking!
Print schedule!
Charge all technological gadgets!
Get the Perfect blogger outfit ready!
Take the time to research the speakers and check out their work so that if I do get the chance to network with them I know who they are and what they specialise in.

Make sure I’m ready and prepared for the workshops I’m taking, the best part about this is that #BlogConf offers 4 workshops but only allows you to take two.  As I’m going with a friend we have decided to take two each and then swap notes so that we can make the most of our #Blogconf experience…yay! The two workshops that I will be attending are how to increase user engagement by learning how to take good quality pictures as well as learning all there is to blog design!

AND OF COURSE…

Make sure I have the entire of my PaperChase collection in my bag to make unlimited amounts of notes with… 

I honestly cannot wait, I feel like a child waiting for Christmas day #BlogConf I’m ready for you…

Love,
Lifeisfunbeingme X